feelings toward LOVE.

When you're in love you feel many things.

It's like nothing can stop you too, literally NOTHING.

I am in a long distance relationship with my boyfriend.

We have 11 Months being together. It's hard & complicated at times.

There has to have A LOT of trust in these things.

There are days were we fight for days, and we get mad at each other and sad.

But really we try fixing it and fixing it until we got it together.

Then there are days were we are really happy that we end up crying,

or just too many emotions really.

A lot of people say "I can't live without you."

tbh, I think that phrase may be true just a little.

Some people just can't live without the person they love.

But in my type of situation, I really have nothing in life, my life sucks

It's really bad & because I am poor I really don't have much to be happy with

& because of that I honestly believe if my bf & I ever broke up my life would

be really depressing I would technically have NOTHING but my sorry life.

I guess that phrase benefits for people with really harsh situations like mine.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, most you people say "I don't need a man" or

"wow look at that lovey dovey couple ew." " I can live without you" I just think you're slightly

a little wrong. You will know & understand when your time comes

where you fall in love with the RIGHT PERSON not just any person.

You'll know it when you feel it, you'll have conclusions & everything will make sense.

So until then, some of you will never understand my feelings towards love & my bf.

The feeling is really something.

what is up with me & hospital visits.

Hey there blog.

Haven't been blogging as normally.

I haven't been feeling so great sadly & this is the summer

I never expected really ... it sucks.

I have been going to the doctor to the hospital to another hospital

I have acid reflux, Memorial Hermann said I have bronchitis but TX Childrens

said It's the reflux/heart burn. Atm, I'm taking my Nexium pill.

You do not know how much I have been stressing out these past few days

SOOO much worrying but today I did my best to not think about it or anything and I feel

a little more secure than before. Honestly I hate the question 'How are you feeling?'

due to the fact anything can happen to your mood or feeling whatever.

I'm glad they did blood tests on me and everything was FINE.

I'm a healthy girl apparently! Which is great cause I thought I wasn't.

Well throughout the days where I've been feeling like utterly shit! My 

amazing boyfriend has stayed up all night for me when I was in the hospital via text.

We camed on my phone and he even drew me a lovely drawing that made me rlly happy!

He's the best thing in my world and I just love him. Thanks loveee!

Other than that, the nexium pill is going to take a while to work for me

& I'll keep not thinking too much over it and try eating more healthier  &

be back on track with my eating (I lost 5LBS no good) but yeah

Also I'll be praying too ! & just try to be more calm and hope I'll feel better!

Last Days of School.

Last Week.

 Last Day as a Junior.

So yesterday was my last day of school!! & last day as a Junior.

Iv'e got to say it was a hell of a year for me! 

I took my English final first, and we had to write a letter to Mrs. Fason (best teacher ever)

& as I was writing she dropped a little note on my desk (pic above) 

As I was writing I wanted to cry because, she's literally such a caring teacher,

she knows what she's doing, she expresses herself the way she is & that was awesome!

"The BEST teacher."

I know many students are like "You're the BEST teacher ever" because they give easy

grades, let them do whatever they want. To me that is NOT the best teacher ever.

We had to work for our grades, although she loved us we still had to put effort no 

matter what! & we'd have our life-lesson convos during class randomly & that was the

BEST part of class because you'd really sit there and THINK about life and about people.

I just love the way she talked to us like a normal person would, many teachers hide their

"real" self because they're teachers but Mrs. Fason was GREAT she would tell us if she was

in a bad mood or good mood or terrible, she let us see apart of her & she saw a part of us.

& One day she walked in class really mad at us "You guys are showing me that you 

don't give a shit about the work, well guess what I don't give a shit about you too,

how does that feel?" It was not surprising seeing her bitch at us it was like wow you're

just saying it like nothing and that's just great because teachers are afraid of bitching at their

students! & That really I was like -applauds- She gave us tough love and I appreciate it.

This is one of the "realest" teachers Iv'e ever met and It's sad I won't see her next year.

So she gave me a book & (I will read it) hugged me after the bell rang, it was so sad.

On the other hand,

I am a Senior now, about time.

Summer's here, & this time I will try to enjoy it bc last year was so shitty.

I hope to hang out with my friends & go out to places. We'll see.

Happy Summer!