When.

These things were the happiest days I had. Over my high school years with people. I miss every thing. 

-When we went to scream world for the 1st time (Me,Sis,David & Amy)

- When we started hanging out every morning together. (April,Me & David)

- When David invited me to his 15th Birthday & his mom paid for me. (Me, David & Amy) 

- When April came over & we broke the neighbors lil bench by siting on it during Christmas season. (Me & April) "Santa came a little early" lol

- When we went to the Galleria by metro. (Me, April & Ary) "Lets be friends" lol

- When we went to the Sony store & literally spent an hour using their laptops making random videos & taking pictures. (Me, April, Sis & her friend) 

- When we went to Ross together & helped me with my fashion sense. (April & Me) 

- When David would buy us breakfast aka frappes & McDonalds. (April, Me & David) 

- When she came on my bus & spent my 15th birthday together (Ashly & Me) 

- When it was the day after valentines day & David bought me a box of chocolate as a thank you token for the carnation bc he never knew I'd actually send him one. (Me & David) 

- When I had my very first brown bag concert in the LGI & April was there to support me. (April & Me)

- When we sat in my uncles car & had a bonding moment with Ahmon the cat lol (April & Me) 

- When we went to McDonalds after school & ordered the 20 piece nuggets & Oreo shake. (David & Me)

- When we went to Tall David's house, explored, laughed so bad nearly peed bc of his "sexy photo of his mom" tried on his clothes, walked to McDonalds ordered a happy meal & went to Walgreens to get big bars of cookies n cream! (David, Tall David, Me) 

- When we went to McDonald's after school made a zombie apocalypse video & ran back home to the rain and ordered pizza at night and went to fiesta to pay his bill lol and game stop. (David & Me) 

- When we had A lunch together for the first time (Me, & Ashly)

- When we walked to the HK for bubble tea & went to the Arcade. ( David & Me) 

- When I was on oovoo with David explaining how I was hungry but too scared to order a pizza & how David told me to walk to the HK but it was night time & was scared. So he showed up at my house to take me out to eat & I had to leave a note for the first time ever in my life lol & we went to the schools poetry singing thing, bought me a cupcake then headed to McDonalds ordered a BBQ chipotle snack wrap grilled then dropped me off home. (David & Me)

- When we stayed after school for gamers club. Wth were we thinking. (David, Me & Tall David) 

- When we were waiting on his sister to pick us up. Stranded outside Tall David's neighborhood & we were petting a stray cat & he told me "You're brave" (David & Me) 

- When we went to go out and eat pho with his sis & mom & some other lady. (Me,David & his mom) 

- When Ashly would come over the apartment. 

- When we went to go watch breaking dawn part 2 at memorial (Ashly, me, Bf) 

- When we spent Christmas together. (Ashly& me) 

- When we went to target & made random videos then went to the fair. (Ashly n me)

- When she came over to bring me food (Ashly n me)

- When we practiced I MY ME MINE at his house & had karaoke, drank wine & had some weird convos. (Me, David & Elizabeth) 

- When we auditioned but didn't make it (me, David, Elizabeth )

- when He gave me a cookies n cream bar as a Xmas gift (David n me) 

- when we had lunch together ! (Me, David, tall David) 

- when he'd sing "Help, I have done it again remix to Anette y r u a scene kid" & I'd be like "Why are you obsessed with scene kids" (me & tall David) 

feelings toward LOVE.

When you're in love you feel many things.

It's like nothing can stop you too, literally NOTHING.

I am in a long distance relationship with my boyfriend.

We have 11 Months being together. It's hard & complicated at times.

There has to have A LOT of trust in these things.

There are days were we fight for days, and we get mad at each other and sad.

But really we try fixing it and fixing it until we got it together.

Then there are days were we are really happy that we end up crying,

or just too many emotions really.

A lot of people say "I can't live without you."

tbh, I think that phrase may be true just a little.

Some people just can't live without the person they love.

But in my type of situation, I really have nothing in life, my life sucks

It's really bad & because I am poor I really don't have much to be happy with

& because of that I honestly believe if my bf & I ever broke up my life would

be really depressing I would technically have NOTHING but my sorry life.

I guess that phrase benefits for people with really harsh situations like mine.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, most you people say "I don't need a man" or

"wow look at that lovey dovey couple ew." " I can live without you" I just think you're slightly

a little wrong. You will know & understand when your time comes

where you fall in love with the RIGHT PERSON not just any person.

You'll know it when you feel it, you'll have conclusions & everything will make sense.

So until then, some of you will never understand my feelings towards love & my bf.

The feeling is really something.

what is up with me & hospital visits.

Hey there blog.

Haven't been blogging as normally.

I haven't been feeling so great sadly & this is the summer

I never expected really ... it sucks.

I have been going to the doctor to the hospital to another hospital

I have acid reflux, Memorial Hermann said I have bronchitis but TX Childrens

said It's the reflux/heart burn. Atm, I'm taking my Nexium pill.

You do not know how much I have been stressing out these past few days

SOOO much worrying but today I did my best to not think about it or anything and I feel

a little more secure than before. Honestly I hate the question 'How are you feeling?'

due to the fact anything can happen to your mood or feeling whatever.

I'm glad they did blood tests on me and everything was FINE.

I'm a healthy girl apparently! Which is great cause I thought I wasn't.

Well throughout the days where I've been feeling like utterly shit! My 

amazing boyfriend has stayed up all night for me when I was in the hospital via text.

We camed on my phone and he even drew me a lovely drawing that made me rlly happy!

He's the best thing in my world and I just love him. Thanks loveee!

Other than that, the nexium pill is going to take a while to work for me

& I'll keep not thinking too much over it and try eating more healthier  &

be back on track with my eating (I lost 5LBS no good) but yeah

Also I'll be praying too ! & just try to be more calm and hope I'll feel better!

Last Days of School.

Last Week.

 Last Day as a Junior.

So yesterday was my last day of school!! & last day as a Junior.

Iv'e got to say it was a hell of a year for me! 

I took my English final first, and we had to write a letter to Mrs. Fason (best teacher ever)

& as I was writing she dropped a little note on my desk (pic above) 

As I was writing I wanted to cry because, she's literally such a caring teacher,

she knows what she's doing, she expresses herself the way she is & that was awesome!

"The BEST teacher."

I know many students are like "You're the BEST teacher ever" because they give easy

grades, let them do whatever they want. To me that is NOT the best teacher ever.

We had to work for our grades, although she loved us we still had to put effort no 

matter what! & we'd have our life-lesson convos during class randomly & that was the

BEST part of class because you'd really sit there and THINK about life and about people.

I just love the way she talked to us like a normal person would, many teachers hide their

"real" self because they're teachers but Mrs. Fason was GREAT she would tell us if she was

in a bad mood or good mood or terrible, she let us see apart of her & she saw a part of us.

& One day she walked in class really mad at us "You guys are showing me that you 

don't give a shit about the work, well guess what I don't give a shit about you too,

how does that feel?" It was not surprising seeing her bitch at us it was like wow you're

just saying it like nothing and that's just great because teachers are afraid of bitching at their

students! & That really I was like -applauds- She gave us tough love and I appreciate it.

This is one of the "realest" teachers Iv'e ever met and It's sad I won't see her next year.

So she gave me a book & (I will read it) hugged me after the bell rang, it was so sad.

On the other hand,

I am a Senior now, about time.

Summer's here, & this time I will try to enjoy it bc last year was so shitty.

I hope to hang out with my friends & go out to places. We'll see.

Happy Summer!

10 Months .

We may have had our 'broken hearts' torn apart at one time.

But we managed to put the pieces back together & make it stronger!

Today is our 10 month anniversary ! & more to come!

We've got a long way to go & I'm so glad we're growing up together each day.

I can't wait to see him get confirmed on Friday! I'm going to be so proud !

Aw, I love you.

When In May: The most craziest thing I've ever done.

I just wanted to share a little funny story that happened to me in May of 2012.

May,25th: Thursday,2012 (Back when I lived in the great depression era.. jk)

I knew M83 was having a concert at the HOB, tickets we're pretty cheap!

so I tell me sister LETS GO. So we go ... I'm wearing neon, she's wearing Mickey Mouse.

We get there to find out its SOLD OUT. -oh no!-

My dad is gone, we told him to pick us up ti'll 11 .... -oh crap!-

WHAT DO WE DO!? !

We walk around thinking and then I decided to cross the street guys, 

I make it to the Toyota Center to find out DRAKE IS IN TOWNNN! HOLLA!

We runnnn, to see if they still have tickets, luckily they still do!! -yay-

Cheap seating tickets, doesn't matter as long as we're in LOL.

So we're there everyone's wearing all fancy, short dresses I'm like heh I dressed

pretty appropriate to this drake concert ! (ayee) meanwhile my sis is with her

MICKEYMOUSE SWEATER LOL.

We sat in our seats like (damn we don't have much money .. can't buy food -sad)

BUTTTT, we found FREE POP CORN UNDER MY SEAT! HAH.

(yolo) Obviously I ate it (who knows if it had weed or whatever It was 

still good ) the guys in front of us during the concert were all like

with their lighters like YEHHH .. AHAHAH YEAHH ... WOOO

I'm like oh my godddddd .. (weed was everywhere it was great!)

It was pretty hilarious we kept saying "This is happening"

WE'RE AT A DRAKE CONCERT WTF ARE WE DOING.

But hey it was such a great concert so, whenever that new album comes out

You best believe!!! I'll be there at the concert with better seats.

Good Memories.

Never in my life did I ever thought about auditioning for the talent show EVER.

In the end I did, which is INSANE. My best friend David, Elizabeth & I performed ...

'I My Me Mine' -4minute (english vers) with choreography!!

Literally we practiced our butts off! & it was pretty fun I have to admit!

We would crack up laughing, and lots of random dancing. 

Also!! because I'm so very shy, I cannot believe I actually sang in front of this girl

(Elizabeth) I didn't know her on our 1st day of practice which was a bit weird

but we got to know each other and we're actually goofballs together LOL.

Over all when audition day came it was terrible, but hey we had fun so nothing can beat that!

Of course I had to cry towards the end of this because, years from now I'll remember this

& I'll be like "I can't believe I actually auditioned for the talent show lol"

David was confused but eventually I told him whyyy I was crying,

he made me cry even more he's such a good person with all due respect.

I just appreciate every single moment I can because
I may not ever see these people that really make my day(s) &
just put a smile on my face and make me laugh like an idiot!! 

You have to make it last while you can.

I seriously will keep this fun memory forever !

We plan on getting back together and dance again this summer so !
ONE2ND (our group) will be on it this summer lol
possibly for the next talent show in December!!
I am looking forward to it and I feel I'm opening up more as a person.

thanks god.